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28 October 2010 @ 11:29 pm
because of you : jongyu  
because of you ; sohye_x3ctmh ; jonghyun/jinki ; pg ; angst/fluff ; wc: ~915 ;
requested by pjvj10 @ twomin_utesoflove ;
jonghyun leaves home due to loneliness, jinki cries himself to sleep, realizing he doesn't shine enough for him.
note: featuring super junior (secret pairings? :p)

a/n1: okay. this is a piece of crap.

prompt: Something where Jonghyun is kind of neglected/taken for granted and starts hanging out with a few of his hyungs and then SHINee members start to miss him and get irritated and Idk what else, but happy ending please?

"I'm leaving. Don't bother coming after me."
Jonghyun grabs his wallet from his nightstand, then snatches his jacket from Key's hands, staring at Taemin one last time before he went.

"Fine!" Key yells at the door, stomping to his room— Jonghyun had been acting weird over a week; they tried to care, they tried to interrupt but all Jonghyun could reply was 'shoo off' with a cold stare, then Jinki tells everyone maybe it's time to let him go.

"Fuck," Minho curses, hurling the magic cube on the floor hard. He was controlling his temper, but he lost it.

"Hyung..." Taemin choked back a sob, then curls up beside Minho, seeking comfort.

From one side Jinki looks from Key to Minho to Taemin, sighing, and suddenly SHINee isn't that all shining anymore.

"Hyung," He says, eyes blurry and voice slurred, "Why, when SHINee is my band... I don't feel the love... the warmth..."

Ryeowook eyes Yesung wearily, then pats Jonghyun's back. "It's okay Jonghyun-sshi, maybe for the starting years everyone are like that."

Jonghyun starts wetting up Ryeowook's sleeve, and Heechul flung a sympathetic glare at Jonghyun.

"Go home, I don't think they'll be happy if you aren't back."

Jonghyun looks up, his tears mixed with tequila and sweat and he stares at Heechul without flinching (like how normal people should), he feels brave but drunk doing that, and he grins.

"I won't go back; there's not where I belong."

"Hyung... Why is Jonghyun-hyung leaving us?" Taemin crawls up beside Minho and Jinki, sighing against the white wall.
"Look, it's a letter. I found it under his pillow." Jinki passes the crushed paper.

"You guys treat me like I'm invisible.
I'm going to find people that don't do that.
Taemin you have Suzy to dance with,
Minho you have a bunch of hyungs to frolic with,
Jinki you have musical hyungs to chat with,
Key you have your '91 line to bitch with;
Who do I have?

Till I find one,

Minho puts his arm around Taemin's shoulder, then looks at Jinki.

"Did we really neglect Jonghyun hyung's feelings?"
"For what?"
"Well it's not my problem, you're his roommate. Deal with it. Good night!"

Minho drags Taemin to their room and Jinki heads to his own, then groans when he sees an empty bed beside his own.

"I'll miss your snores, Jonghyun."

"Oh Jinki hyung, you're up! Go wake Jonghyun— oh. Sorry." Key turns back to his breakfast, apology on his features as the kitchen sank back into its gloomy mood.

"I miss Jonghyun hyung." Minho blurts, then his eyes get rather large when he realizes he said that out loud.

"We're not SHINee without him." Taemin adds, tears in his eyes; Minho and Key trying to calm him down.

Jinki looks at the scene in front of him, he knows they're right, he's suffering too, but Jonghyun's not going to come back.


"Hello, hyung? Yeah, it's Onew... Really? Jonghyun's at your place? Since when? Oh... Oh, it's nothing... We're absolutely fine over there... Ah, okay... Two more days? Is he sure? Mmm... Okay then, talk to you next time hyung."

"Hey Kibum."
"Yeah hyung?"
"I know where Jonghyun is."
"Are you sure?"
"Yeah. At Super Junior's dorm."
"How did you know?"
"I called Leeteuk-hyung."

"You're smart," Kibum ends, and Jinki grins; it was usually rare for Kibum to actually compliment him.
He senses that this was going to be a good, good day.

"Jonghyun, please come home."
"No, that's final."
"When would you come?"
"Until I'm happy."
"Why aren't you happy?"
"Because I don't feel like part of the SHINee family anymore."
"But you are— you are Bling Bling of SHINee, you know, you are one of us—"
"Bling Bling is only a fancy name to get fans. You know that isn't real. We don't practically shine, hyung."

"I know. I don't shine. Maybe that's why you haven't even been looking at me from the start," Jinki says, then turns to walk back home alone.

Jonghyun stands alone in shock in his black cardigans and brown boots in a windy night of Seoul.

"Hello Kibum?"
"I'm coming home today."
"Holy— who are you?! Jonghyun?!"
"Yeah— relax. I am. Coming home."
"Omo! Okay."

"Hyung!" Taemin pounces into Jonghyun's arms when he enters the apartment and sobs about Jonghyun's unfinished lyrics and unused rabbit slippers, Minho smiles knowingly from the couch and Kibum just nods while combing his hair, but all Jonghyun wants to do is to find Jinki.


Jinki turns around and stares in shock.

"J—Jonghyun? You're back?"

Jonghyun drops his bag on his bed,  then stands beside Jinki.

"Cool. I thought we were going to lose you forever."

"Not gonna happen."

"Why did you decide to come back?"

Jonghyun faces Jinki; Jinki does the same and Jonghyun beams like the sun.

"To see you shine for me."

a/n2: I'm sorry. I'm still feeling confused from the incident and this whole piece is bullshit.
I'm sorry I can't write any pairing involving Jonghyun properly without flaws anymore. Sorry.

Everything sounds so delusional, y'know?

:( I need twomin ASAP.

oh, i might delay requests due to my recent inspiration on blood types.

i still hope you will like this though, pjvj10  :( I'm sorry to disappoint you .
feeling: coldcold
listening to: SHINee - Best Place (내곁에만있어)
♕: sexygaze!junhyungsohye_x3ctmh on October 28th, 2010 03:31 pm (UTC)
spot for pjvj10 !
Pooja: Jongyuu <3pjvj10 on October 28th, 2010 05:37 pm (UTC)
awwwwwwww this was cute!!
I actually wasn't even expecting for you to write this because after the whole incident, i can't even bring myself to read any jonghyun-centric fics! I'm not saying that I'm not a shawol/blinger anymore- the fans who stopped being fans over something like this were never really fans to begin with..but I'm more worried about what this is going to do to SHINee as a whole- with the Hello promotions still going on and their first solo concert coming up..
I actually really liked the blunt dialogue and Minnie was so cute! I liked how at first they were all like "IDC IF HE'S GONE" but then they all started missing him
don't worry about disappointing me or anything- because you totally didn't :) AND YESUNG- MY BIASS
♕: norago!heechulsohye_x3ctmh on October 29th, 2010 07:09 am (UTC)
I'm glad you liked it ^^
I took a long time, didn't I? :(

Yeah, I'm quite scared. I mean, with SNSD and their comeback today, I'm really really anxious if the 'rumors' on Minho and Yuri would be brought up today.

shameless Minho stan, who cares

Yesung is one of my SJ biases too ^^
jongkeyfan408: black an white taemin stare upjongkeyfan408 on October 28th, 2010 04:52 pm (UTC)
"To see you shine for me."
I'm depressed about it :( don't worry it's not a piece of crap :) hehe sorry for sneaking up on your fic :) just happened to saw it on replay XD
i dont care if it's fail, or crap or watever.
because the end of this fic is what i want the most.
5-1 = ERROR.
5 + SHINee world = perfect.
thank you for letting me creep up on this and rant about crap. <3
♕: rdd!tae1sohye_x3ctmh on October 29th, 2010 07:10 am (UTC)
I'm depressed too :(

It's okay, although the whole concept already seems fake.

Thank you for liking this! ^^
밥라브라n_k_zanzibar on October 28th, 2010 07:10 pm (UTC)
I needed something like this! Call me delusional, but I will always be a Jongyu (and Jongho.....and OnJongKey) shipper!

I am pleased at the fact that you included Super Junior! I always had something like this in mind for Jonghyun where he runs away to Super Junior's, due to being neglected.
Although because of this idea, I started shipping a crack pairing! xD (Kyuhyun x Jonghyun)

Blah, getting of topic!
This was short and sweet, and although I am a huge fan of long fics, I liked having to use my imagination on what happens next.
Thanks for writing this, despite this whole mess!
yuki12341234yuki12341234 on October 28th, 2010 08:33 pm (UTC)
this is so cute ;_;
wicked l'il flamevolatileflame on October 28th, 2010 11:47 pm (UTC)
awwwwwwwwwwww~ <3
the end was so sweet
nikcufnikcuf on October 30th, 2010 06:32 am (UTC)
/sobbing ;_;
♕sohye_x3ctmh on October 30th, 2010 06:35 am (UTC)
;_; don't cry bb.
nikcuf: jongyuwnikcuf on October 30th, 2010 12:00 pm (UTC)
but i did, i cried. this is so beautiful yet painful ;-;♥
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